The only people who thrive in this system are those with money. It's that realization that causes the majority of us--the hosts to the parasitic class---misery.

We drink, drug, fuck, fight and self-terminate because this system drains your potential. You can't worry about creative pursuits or intellectual interest because parasite needs to extract more from you.

That's why they always tell you to work two or three jobs so you never have the time to build yourself up.

I'm tired of being robbed and being told it's "stability"

Getting myself back on task with drawing daily will require reflection. I know this will help me get out of my own way , but it will take sometime.

I'm still trying to get my Kamvas Pro to be my primary monitor when attached to my laptop. So far, it's not going to great, but I'll keep trying this evening. Also need pick a new sketchbook yhis evening

I burnt out from drawing back in February of 2022. I've been been enrolled in the Sketch Like the Pros course from Chou-Tac since September 2022 as part of the 50% rule.

Tonight I will attempt lesson 1 homework.

Clip studio was on sale. Got it back and archiving the code this time.

So reconnected the tablet after eight months of hiatus. Turns out I lost my activation license for clip studio from years again.

As May 29th, 2022 will mark one year since father's death, I've decided that a year of grief is long enough.Life is too short to be restrained. So I will put pen and stylus to paper and screen respectively.

Using the weekend to prepare.

It probably won't change much, but it'll keep me sane

Made progress I put something on a page for the first time in a month.

When I don't draw, I hate myself.

When I do draw, I hate myself.

This is the struggle since I've dealing with, alone, for twenty years.

Self-awareness is fun