Finished the perspective drawing from "Drawing on the right side of the brain"

-Will probably go out and sketch from life using what I've learned now

-Drew more today and finishes reading "The Self-Devouring Society"

-Drew my hand with a viewfinder

-Governent of Canada sites unable to accessed, using it as a sign not to enroll in the military again, good lol

I spent seven hours drawing today and I've never felt more fulfilled.

4 days left until my drawing habit is reestablished.

And why I will not be successful following the logic of capitalism.

You communicate a solution to someone's problem.

What happens when the problem is the system and everything is telling you to destroy the system?

Then you become the problem.

I'm okay being a problem if it means I no longer have to perform being a "solution" to problem that shouldn't exist in the first place.

But then you're considered the "asshole" for wanting something better.....

From "Freedom from Civilization"

Didn't realize there was such a thing as 'Anarchist Economics' and no it is not the gross Friedman, Hayek or Rand kind.

Also picked up Morpho books.

I don't want fame.

I don't want money.

I don't want status.

I don't want friendship.

I don't want influence.

I don't want education.

I don't want to be wanted.

I don't want anything.

Yet I am considered wrong.

The fools...

For 4 years I've sabotaged what I wanted to do with art by drinking myself to death.

My living family exploits what little money I have for their own benefit.

The one person who is attracted to me I must give up because it makes my living family "unconfortable."

Fuck capitalist society

Out of all the jobs that I am qualified for under capitalism it is the sales job that had the decency to give me a potential interview.

Yeah this system needs to be destroyed by any and all means necessary.

I resent sales