As my brother prepares for surgery today I find myself reading, writing down and reflecting upon "Days of War, Nights of Love" by Crimethinc.

Trying to record dreams

Going to dentist

What is it called when you want to scream but can't scream?

S: Stop drinking

M: From March 1st 2024 to June 1st 2024

A: Replace Drinking with STEAM interests

R: Replacing Drinking with STEAM hobbies will help me become the person I couldn't be while drinking.

T: Since STEAM is 5 letters every five days will consists of two hours of Science, Technology, Engineering, Art, and Mathematics studies.

This is my first accountability log

I need to try and draw again

The date was February 11th, 2022, at 1100EST, in an corporate bar/restaurant chain built on Haudenosaunee, Wendat and Huron land.

I told myself : "I don't want to do this anymore" and succumbed to corporate slavery.

Two years of being corporate undead is enough.

I need to draw, otherwise I will never reclaim my "true" self.

Because wireshark and tcpdump are my friends.

Another weekend on-call that I didn't need to be called for.

I just want this place to fire me, that way I can at least collect the unemployment I've paid into while getting certified in something more interesting then desktop support.

Fuck Managed Service Providers....they waste your time and money.

Uh yay?